Posts Tagged ‘poetic justice.’
one word, yet so much is said when using this word. i love words, i love the meaning behind words. i love that just one word or a few strung together can say SO much. now, finding the right word(s) in the right moment, that can be challenging.
there’s a movie that i now can’t think what it is, but i remember the character wanting to say something SO badly to another character in the moment but that they always chickened out, they couldn’t do it. until finally an instance occurs when they were able to say what they meant, not even moment’s later though, regretted it. (if you know the movie I’m talking about TELL me it’s bugging me now…..)
change is the word on my heart, in my head, written all through my journal currently and for some time now i haven’t understood why. i believe I’m beginning to understand now and it’s a little scary. both stephen and i feel and know that there is change on the horizon for us, and with that can come fear, but we are trusting that god will lead us and show us the next step.
exciting really, isn’t it?
so of course it’s that time,
a time when you remember things past and look forward to things ahead. As 2010 is rapidly disappearing in the rearview mirror i naturally begin to wonder what this bright new year will hold.
2010 was good to us, finally settled in our own little corner of the world (kelowna, BC) we began to dream once again. this past year took us to many places. some of those places we once called home, but many of them new and unfamiliar to us. This was a year of adventure, challenge, growth, family & friends, and much Love.
we can’t wait to see where this ship will sail in 2011, my husband wrote something once to me while we were dating and i feel that it is very key for this next year, it went a little something like this…..
“faith is the ship of doing.
it is never docked but is fueled by hopes of distant lands;
the Holy Spirit fills it’s sails and the word of God is the very wood it is made of.
you are it’s crew and when the crew stay on board it is not easily sunk.
Jesus is it’s Captain and the hurting world it’s destination, a redeemed world it’s goal.
faith is the ship of doing and it’s your choice to sail with it or not.”
a few pictures below only begin to capture this past year for us, enjoy and much love in this new year.
lately though i have found myself “creatively constipated”. a funny way of putting it, but quite honestly that’s how it feels. anytime i go to write, or draw, or listen, or even deliberately open my eyes to see, it’s like nothing comes. i try but, nothing.
so the other day i started asking this question, what inspires?
i came across this scripture today…
“All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: that the man of God may be perfect, thoroughly furnished unto all good works.” ~2 Tim 3:16-17
God inspires. at least i realized in that moment once again what i already knew, that ultimately it’s God who inspires me, because in all those things that i find inspiration and can respond creatively to, it’s because God has revealed something to me.
am i still “creatively constipated”? i guess we’ll see….
*Photo taken by Sophia Dorozio
I wake in the morning,
rested but still tired.
Waiting for rain, waiting for flight.
Changing things as I go, leaving gifts,
making snow ball effects.
Make my life a message and a sign.
“a division or contrast between two things that are, or are represented as being opposed or entirely different…”
i have been thinking on this a lot lately. often things in life are one way or the other, they can often be opposing as well. take for example the city of jakarta…
i have been here for over 2 weeks now and it’s mind blowing when i think about the separate dichotomy’s that i have experienced. here i am walking in the heart of the city, admiring the breathtaking structures that ascend into the sky, then in the blink of an eye, there i am starring into a poverty induced area, barricaded by walls and fences so as not to clutter the beauty of the city streets.
in the midst of being surrounded by such opposing sides i find myself drawn. but not to just one side alone, i find myself drawn in fact to the people, the people who find themselves situated on one of these two sides.
i am in love. in love with the faces, the gestures, the movements, the longings, the desires, and so much more that i have witnessed in my time here. i am in love with the beauty that God’s children posses, the things that mold and shape them to be who they are. there is a desire awakening within me to respond…respond to the cry, the call, the smile, the pain, the joy, the laughter, the felt need, the eternal need. how does one respond? to be honest that i am still working out…
i am reminded of the story of the “Good Samaritan” (Luke 10:25-36). i have been confronted with the fact that so many times i fall into the role of one of the first two people, crossing the path of the injured man lying beaten and bruised by robbers who stripped him of all he had and left him in the road. i too often find myself quickly passing by without even a second look let alone a second thought. i long to respond with the actions of the “Good Samaritan”, so why don’t i?
i am coming to realize more and more that not only like the city of jakarta and many others with their confronting dichotomies, there is an ongoing dichotomy that i am having to battle daily, it is that of my flesh and my spirit. i am faced with that of my flesh which desires what is contrary to my spirit, and my spirit desiring that which is contrary to my flesh…both opposing one another (Galatians 5:16-17). because of my love for God, my desire is to be led by the spirit, but in choosing that i am constantly confronted with and in conflict with the opposite. it is an ongoing challenge, but one that i choose to fight daily and know that in the end “all things God works for the good of those who love him…” (Romans 8:28).
*pictures will come soon….*
in the city of darwin there’s a “buzz” in the air that’s never been heard before, one that speaks of dynamic fun, exciting adventures and crazy epxperience. it’s that of the youth awakening to a new phenomena. what could this be you may be asking yourself? it’s something that has them coming back for more, wishing saturday was EVERY day of the week, and that they could chill with the guys in the cool black shirts non- stop. it’s the “buzz” of youth street darwin my friends, taking over the city.
we are about to have our 5th saturday in a row now and the crew are addicted! they just can’t get enough. we have seen numbers increase week after week. we had 24 in total for youth street teams this past week and over 30 come for youth street live! we are of course praying that numbers will yet again increase this week.
along with all this excitement i do have some sad news… this will be our last saturday in darwin as an outreach team. we have LOVED our time here , chillin with the youth of the city, going into high schools , doing lunchtime programs jam packed with music, skate, and building relationships. for all you out there who may be wondering ” what about youth street?”, well don’t fret my friends. youth street will be kicking off full time in darwin when February 2009 rolls around. so get excited and stick around, who knows when youth street may be coming to a town near YOU!
just recently i was asked this question…”when haunted by restlessness and anxiety at the thought of working through a circumstance mirroring you, is there peace to be found?” granted it was worded a bit differently, but an interesting question just the same. what would you have said?
i am coming to believe that the answer to this question is yes.
now, had you asked me this just a few days ago i would have laughed at you. it’s amazing how quickly god responds to our heart’s cry. i found myself in a very similar situation, faced with a circumstance that required me to remain calm and put forward a peaceful response. i wish i could tell you that i did in fact respond that way, but to the other person’s shock i did not.
i think the peace of god is laced with trust. it seems as though it is near impossible to find the peace of god in a circumstance if you are not willing to trust him. when i was making one of the most important decisions of my life (thus far) this past year i was needing the peace of god, even though i didn’t realize it at first. of course hindsight is 20/20 isn’t it? i look back now and see so clearly. as i began to trust god with my circumstance whole heartedly without reserve, it was then that his peace came over me and i was able to face that decision head on, knowing that no matter what the outcome i was completely trusting god.
when staring into the mirror of circumstance yourself, what would your response be?
just a little something i have been thinking about lately…..
the desire to be loved comes from a place deep within one’s being. a place where not many venture for fear of finding what they always knew, what they always felt…emptiness.
yet it’s not until you venture to the deepest parts that you can find the cure for the pain. it’s not until you let the wound breathe can it heal. it’s not until you open the door that anyone can walk through.
its saturday, the music’s pumping, the energy level’s high and excitement fills the air. it’s the day that youth street kicks off in darwin nt for the first time ever! not sure of how many crew ( a cool “tag” we give the youth) to expect having been able to do only three days of promo prior, we await anxiously.
with near 23 youth street staff, thanks to the reef to outback back base in darwin and current DTS that’s running we make an unstoppable force. crew start to arrive and we see 9 come in total, in the mix we had a few sport fanatics along with a skater and a few musos. this was of course GREAT considering those are the three teams we are running for this youth street connect.
because it was the first day of youth street in darwin we wanted to kick it off with a BANG! so we decided to have what we call a “together factor”. which basically brings all the crew together for a few face melting hours of extravagant fun! we decided to run the first ever “battle of the gladiators” to test one’s skill, accuracy and stamina.
needless to say friends, this day went OFF! we had crew raving about the day , the staff, the games, the snags (cooked by yours truly) and set on bringing ALL their friends next week. it was amazing to see the youth get right into it, there was no room for passivity or boredom this week that’s for sure!
8 people pack their bags full of what little belongings they have with the goal of achieving a call greater than themselves. they hit the road filled with a desperate passion to see aussie youth changed by the heart of god, and through love, bring hope to a generation that needs it most.
3 days, 30 hours, 16 pit stops, 120 pieces of chocolate, 450 something songs, and 0 arguments later they arrive at their destination. shaking off the cobwebs of the many hours past with closed eye’s, they step out onto a sun-scorched land that is not their own. vision clear, and hearts on fire, they begin the journey god’s laid out for them, not sure of what awaits around the corner but ready to take on whatever lies ahead…